a pain that never leaves

sam vimes has adhd:
1) addictive tendencies, something a lot of adhd people struggle with because It Gives Shiny Dopamine Real Quick
2) his addiction is explained as something like how his blood is below normal levels of alcohol/fluffy pink clouds, so he has to drink to catch up with everybody else to avoid cosmic horror - but he seems to overdo it (quite a bit) (oof)
3) relatedly, adhd people have a lower dopamine level than neurotypicals and tend to self medicate with caffeine, drugs, alcohol etc so……………. there we go, instant parallel
4) can’t regulate his emotions / can be a little impulsive when dealing with the fattened piglike bougioesie (i cant spell this word) and/or incorrigible criminals hidden in the institution
5) by which i mean he gets angry and says things everyone will regret seemingly without being able to stop himself, like there’s a motor running in him that he can’t stop
6) will run away from a conversation mid-sentence because He Had A Big Thought About A Crime (easily distracted, specifically by his….)
7) Hyperfocus: he hyperfixates on whatever case he’s working on, displaying that he isn’t motivated by deadlines or whatever, but by what specifically interests him
8) at the opposite end of the spectrum, he’s shit at organisation and memory (forgets birthdays sometimes, forgets special events are coming up unless they’re deeply ingrained in his memory, has a desk with decades worth of filing on it etc) EG: if it doesn’t pertain to his Special Interest / Hyperfixation / Hyperfocus whatever you wanna call it, he can’t focus on it
9) when he does focus on it he neglects himself - doesn’t sleep, eat, wash etc - more ADHD behaviours when presented with the big shiny Hyperfocus thing
10) thrives on the routine/structure of being in the Watch - having set times to walk around, having a daily timetable etc, and panics when faced with an unregulated, unorganised civilian life
11) until Sybil comes along and helps him restructure of course
12) unrelated but this list was nearly ordered 1 2 3 4 6 7 8 7 8 9 7 because i kept forgetting which number i was on. also i added bold bits for my fellow distracted dumbasses who like the funky letter flourishments